I spent three nights building full websites from scratch.

Then I woke up today and couldn’t even open my laptop.

It’s like my brain switches off when it wants to ruin my life.

People say:

“You’re so smart! Imagine what you could be!”

Yeah.

Imagine.

Because imagining is easier than becoming.

Can you have both?

Things I realized were ADHD:

Starting 12 hobbies. Finishing none.

Cleaning my room by emptying every drawer onto the floor.

Reading five books at once.

Studying only the chapters I find interesting.

Remembering obscure medical facts but forgetting my own math homework till the very last minute.

Having Olympic-level emotional reactions.

Things I KNOW are my ADD:

beautiful planners

color-coded notebooks

aesthetic containers

…but none of it lasts longer than 3 weeks.

Can laser-focus like a genius when the interest hits:

reading

graphic design

medical facts

makeup

gaming

niche hobbies

essays

writing

coding

skincare

YouTube Makeup Tutorials

But can’t focus at all on “boring” tasks like:

chores

homework

organization

emails

PLUS:

procrastinating to the skies

submitting last minute assignments finished in mere minutes assigned months ago…and getting the top grade. Every. Single. Time.

Everyone thinks I’m just lazy — but I’m actually just wired differently.

…Literally. Every. ADD+ADHD. Girl. Ever.

“Why are you like this?” — every adult ever.

If ADHD and ADD had a combined flag, I’d be waving it.

Everyone thinks I’m smart.

Like too smart.

Like “Are your parents scientists?” smart.

Like “Did you skip a grade?” smart.

The truth?

I’m a genius stuck in a brain that behaves like a browser with nineteen illegal pop-ups.

I grasp concepts faster than teachers can teach them…

…but forget assignments faster than they can hand them out.

I could probably diagnose a rare medical condition at 15

but I can’t remember to bring my own notebook to class.

I think this is what they call potential.

Or a curse.

I’m still deciding.